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From Sexual Abuse to
Compassion Sensuality
The seeds of what was to become Compassion Sensuality
began in my relationship with one of the female figure
drawing models as a 23 year-old design school student.
She had been brutally raped and abducted a couple of
years earlier at age 16, and while well-meaning and in
some ways helpful, my desire to help "heal" her was
painfully naive.
Yet that relatively short romance was a pivot turning
point that only surfaced many years later in various
forms.
One being that I attracted people of both genders who
had been sexually abused, from "only" verbal molestation
to rape.
Naturally, one can attract such fellow souls and
experiences to oneself for a wide variety of reasons:
part dharma and also as mirrors of some of one's own
wounded parts of self.
Whether due to my own birth and in infancy trauma (which
may or may not have been overtly sexual) and other
unusual sexual life experiences during my teens, there
has been an underlying thread of trying to complete or
heal something.
This includes setting boundaries (such as not being the
projected target or victim of an abused woman's
unresolved rage at all men) as well zero tolerance
towards degrading to violent attitudes, words or actions
by men.
That is, one can draw on a powerful sense of
compassionate Yin tenderness beyond one's personality or
ego when dealing with such excruciating release of pain
in another soul, as well as even understanding the roots
of abusive tendencies, yet also maintain a gracefully
discerning Yang detachment.
An Early
Wide-Angle Perspective (Bio Info Stuff)
I was born in Switzerland to an American journalist
father and an aristocratic Hungarian mother. It was a
multilingual (English, French, Italian, German)
upbringing and I graduated from a French High School and
moved to U.S. in '74.
Coupled to the inner journey itself, this multicultural
exposure (i.e. having been to 22 countries by age 18),
all of this instilled a tendency to seek understanding
in more inclusive, and ultimately more "spiritually
democratic" ways.
My Catholic mother had also been a volunteer courier for
the Allies during WWII to help get Jews out of Hungary,
and my father was likewise a gutsy man with high
intelligence.
Therefore there is an inherently gentle yet daring and
inclusive spirit within what has been unfolding as
Compassion Sensuality and all of its in-progress
creative expressions.
Thank you for your visit and interest.
With kind regards,
Philip Steven Knight
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