The Personal Genesis of

Compassion Sensuality

by Philip Steven Knight

A website and its contents is not about who conceived and created it, yet we all bring our life experiences to our work. 

Therefore it seems appropriate to give you some "behind the scenes" information on the who and the how it came to be.

More details will be in a forthcoming book and multimedia project, but here are some basic heart-facts.

Compassion Through Rape and Healing

The seeds of what was to become Compassion Sensuality began in my relationship with one of the female figure drawing models as a 23 year-old design school student.

I found out she had been brutally raped and abducted a couple of years earlier at age 16, and while well-meaning and in some ways helpful, my desire to help "heal" her were a rather rude awakening in what healing is really about.

Yet that relatively short romance was a pivot turning point that only surfaced many years later in various forms.

One being that I attracted people of both genders who had been sexually abused, from "only" verbal molestation to rape.

Naturally, one can attract such fellow souls and experiences to oneself for a wide variety of reasons: part dharma and also as mirrors of some of one's own wounded parts of self.

Whether due to my own birth and in infancy trauma (which may or may not have been overtly sexual) and other unusual sexual life experiences during my teens, there has been an underlying thread of trying to complete or heal something.

This includes setting boundaries (such as not being the projected target or victim of an abused woman's unresolved rage at all men) as well zero tolerance towards degrading to violent attitudes, words or actions by men.

That is, one can draw on a powerful sense of compassionate Yin tenderness beyond one's personality or ego when dealing with such excruciating release of pain in another soul, as well as even understanding the roots of abusive tendencies, yet also maintain a gracefully discerning Yang detachment.

An Early Wide-Angle Perspective (Bio Info Stuff)

I was born in Switzerland to an American journalist father and an aristocratic Hungarian mother.  It was a multilingual (English, French, Italian, German) upbringing and I graduated from a French High School and moved to U.S. in '74.

Coupled to the inner journey itself, this multicultural exposure (i.e. having been to 22 countries by age 18), all of this instilled a tendency to seek understanding in more inclusive, and ultimately more "spiritually democratic" ways. 

My Catholic mother had also been a volunteer courier for the Allies during WWII to help get Jews out of Hungary, and my father was likewise a gutsy man with high intelligence.

Therefore there is an inherently gentle yet daring and inclusive spirit within what has been unfolding as Compassion Sensuality and all of its in-progress creative expressions.

Thank you for your visit and interest.